Have i told you lately

So...
A few things have been happening since my last entry - a bit more than 2 years ago *fail much*
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some good,
some not so,
some to be remembered,
some to be left behind

Thank you 2012, uve been great.
Guess this is by far the best year in my life ever since i left home
10 was a battle and another year of ruins. 11 was the year of pick up, dust off and try again
12 is when i find myself again and ive never been happier :)

Memorable stuff from 2011:
1. Bought my first property
2. Got myself a bear
3. Met some really awesome friends for life at work
4. Got myself my DLSR (no wait, i think that was in June 2010 i think. meh, just for the heck of it)

3 most memorable stuff i did in 2012:
1. Milestone year - Im turning 30!!!
2. My property settled on 1st day of Chinese new year
3. Moving in with mr bear
4. Bali holiday with mr bear
5. Make it happen
6. Paying off ATO debt

(Yes, i know i said 3 but i dont care and still counting.. and btw, surviving end of the world 21/12/2012 should technically count as another achievement lol. Oh, and me and lou broke up - more on that later , or maybe never haha)

but above all, i can finally see some lights at the end of this tunnel of my twenties and guess what, i cant be happier.
I found my old self back again, I started rebuilding my life for the better, closed the door behind me and move on, became my own best friend, and love myself a little bit more each day.

So today, on this very day of new year's eve, i want to say 2012 - thank you, im deeply humbled by what you gave me and 2013 - CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!!

Hard-earned Money

WARNING: BORING POST AHEAD
Read at own risk

Yay for the long weekend!

Even tho technically i've only got 1 day off for a 4 day weekend, i'm feeling very excited! Haven't had any day off for years.. ^_* been working my ass off 7 days a week. So, YAY again for long weekend~~~

Its April! APRIL??!! Damn, i havent even list down my new year's resolution for 2010 and its already. In fact, i should really be listing this down. Right Now. Better late than never?
- Spend more quality time with LL
- Invest more on stuff that matters
- which mean Cutting Spending on cheapy stuffs like cheap seasonal SUPRE stuff
- Setting up budget for food
- Less KFC and Hungry Jack's --> this is a bit of a challenge, unfortunately
- WTF!!!! this resolution thing is SHIT BORING.

Whatever.
Why do I even need resolution when all i want is to save more so i can afford a new SLR camera, a new house and a lawyer for our case

Paul is a big cunt

Feeling very emo at work today
Not even sure whether I should felt betrayed, fooled, angry, dissapointed or sad anymore
Guess its an uneven mix of all negative feeling..

I'm in a very negative state of mind
right then and even right now, i guess

My boss is a big fat fuckin' liar, cunt, sly, untrusworthy, retarded politician ever.
I felt like a small unworthy-of-life pawn in a big field of chess. My mind keep asking "how could he.." Why promise me something that I want if you are just buying my time? Why? Why? Why?
Why make use of me for your own battle and shrug me off after? What bad thing have I ever done to you. Paul, u're a cunt!!!!!

Meet my boss - Paul "Dickhead" Cunt

All I did was do my job, and take even more responsibility than what I got paid for. Why should I take care of everything for you if you can't even take care of me? Thats so bloody irresponsible.
I dont think you have my best interest at heart. If you want me to go, fire me. Do something to get rid of me. Why promise me something simple that you can't even fulfil? Why not own up your bloody mistake? Why can't you just face your bloody irresponsible self ? Why make so many twist to your story when you know that I can easily find out the truth.. why make up shit that even a 3 year old would not believe? Why are you being a lame cunt? Why are you messing with my trust?

Why make me lose the last remaining little bit of respect I have for you?

And what makes me really sad is that there is nothing I can do about when it happened. Not today, anyway. I didnt see it coming. I can't go up to his face and slap him. I felt like quitting, but I shouldn't.. should I? What I should do is to use everything in my power to take him down

but HOW?? talk is shit easy.
I'm in still in the state of shock I can't even plot a revenge because my mind just went blank whole day. I can feel the fire burning on my chest. I need a revenge. Bloody have to think of something to take him down. SUGGESTIONNNNNSSS???!!!!!

Fucking PAUL is a big cunt!!!!!!!!!!!

Woo Hoo... FATT at last!!

Nice surprise!

Totally unplanned.

Random checking on my bank account tonight and see this:

$1,888 ---> see my triple 8s?


TOTALLY HAD TO BE PRINT SCREEN!!!
looks crappy, shit i dont know how to fix this, double click if you dont believe me.
(instruction: HEY!! DOUBLE CLICK ON THE ABOVE. see for yourself)
heee heee heee.. woo-hoo madness!! madness!!!




im going mad....

ok, distraction required.




my future partner doing mankind a favour. LOVE YOU!!!
love~ love~ love~

WHATEVER!!!

Whatever!
WHAT-EEE-VER!!

Stressing out :(
Im just a girl. How much more thing can i handle? How much more thing is expected of me?
So what if im almost 30? Does age really determines what we should achieve in life?? What have YOU yourself achieved when you were 30?

I dont have a house, i'm not married, I probably won't have enough savings, I don't have a career, I don't have a car.. so what? SO WHATTTT??!

Im living from my own sweat. alright?
I eat from my own hand and I never needed or will ever needed ANYTHING from you.

Is it my fault that I can't bag myself a rich bf? Is it my fault if Im with some decent guy who doesn't happen to be a millionaire? Is it my fault that somewhere in this world people associate me as a FAIL just because I'm not married yet at this age? What rights have you got poking your nose into my own comfortable UNMARRIED stage?

FUCK YOU!
FUCK YOU ALL SELFISH PEOPLE!
FUCK YOU ALL NOSEY RETARDS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF YOUR BRAIN IS MISPLACED SOMEWHERE NEAR YOUR ASSHOLE, DIG IT OUT. DONT BLURT OUT WORDS WITHOUT THINKING. FUCK YOU

FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK YOU ALL!

Random

*blank*

30 things in my mind randomly in the next 30 seconds just for the heck of it!

1. quiche
2. white spacious halls
3. fresh pink lilies
4. husky
5. ruffles
6. eyeliners
7. sushi
8. a kiss
9. black and white photos
10. dad
11. blueberry cheesecake
12. norah jones
13. blog
14. carrie bradshaw
15. eyeshadows
16. crabstick
17. floral dress
18. heartshape cushion
19. jazz
20. big house
21. curtains
22. chic sunglasses
23. laces
24. chocolate truffles
25. $100 notes
26. beancurd soup
27. high heels
28. accessories
29. sunday morning
30. sunshine

wow.. human minds can juggle so many things at once.. *amazed*

WTF!

Think about food most of the time!

Bored - again

My new job excitement lasted only for less than a week. What the heck is wrong with me? Isnt this what I wanted? Nice office - checked. Corporate wardrobe required - checked. Great facility - checked. Good pay - checked. Nice colleagues - maybe. Something to do with money and finance - checked. Nice bosses - *pukes*

*scratching head*

Damnit!! To be honest.. what I really want is having my own business. But I just dont know where to start. Or what to do- for that matters! and this is making me miserable... :(


Anyway, object of lust time!



Louboutin's Dillian

Ruffles! Ruffles! Ruffles!! Love it to bits!