She likes how he blogs, her texts turn him on.

Geeez... cant believe its another month now.. its JUNE!! How time really flies.. its been half a year since the mess. and im alright.. just like ppl say, when things gets to the worst, it really cant go any worst.. thank God..

really cant believe its another 2 months since my last hesitation about him..but he's sweet.. at the very least, he makes me laugh..and cried..and live my life again :)

btw, been really keen at the new CK In2u marketing.. i think its brilliant.. though the actual smell of the perfume is rather.. usual. Found this on web:

The name is written in the shorthand of an instant message, a casual invitation to sex so immediate as to imply there was no time to spell it out: “in to you.”

She only knows his screen name, but can see that he has a cute face. He doesn't know what she looks like, but he wants to know what she's in2. She likes how he blogs, her texts turn him on.

It's intense. For right now.

thought this bit is a bit over the top ---> Last year, the company went so far as to trademark “technosexual,” anticipating it could become a buzzword for marketing to millennials, the roughly 80 million Americans born from 1982 to 1995.

...well.. lets see if thats technosexual bit is gonna happen.. repeating the success of CK One in its day. But the whole point is, it does really catch my full attention. Thumbs up, CK!

Dumb and Dumber

Been abandoning blog for quite a while.. :P
life's been a bit hectic.. bit messy, bit busy and bit fussy and confusing these days.. havent been doing the right thing. No!! it's more like doing all the wrong things all at once and happy to make things worse so i can start all over again. what an idiot!

Lesson no.1 - Office affair is not a good idea. Dont mess around
Lesson no.2 - Never make a sudden U- turn or you'll regret
Lesson no.3 - The stress of being dumped and dumping ppl at the same time equals to twice the amount of overdosing on Panadol by 10x

.....

Life isnt getting easier and really, i dont know what the sh*t i was talking about..

Sickos & Weirdos

Havent been posting for days..not because im too lazy.. just havent get online for a few days.. been out and about.. and havent slept for the past (almost)40 hours.. and living a single life to the max (something that i havent done for a few years..:P)

Not much update, anyway.. just work work and work.. but the truth is, i havent been concentrating on my listing job much these days, thanks to overload issue.. and too much things going on with complaints from some really stupid, overreacting, troublesome customers... some from fair trading.. and some.. really, just useless stuff like why have you not reply my emails and shit like that.. tiring.. boring.. frustrating.. and most of all, making ppl sick sick sick :(

Watermelon Hell

Maybe it was lack of sleep, maybe it was just stressed, plus a bit of pain.. but it certainly is a big frustration..

i totally freaked out at work yesterday :( which is so unprofessional.. but i cant help it.. im sooooo tired i cant even blog.. plus tonnes of complaints waiting to be resolved.. *sigh* what a life..

came back from office, head straight to supermarket.. and gosh, why are everyone buying watermelon like there's no tomorrow??! they are bloody heavy.. all of them.. why did every single customer have to carry at least 1 huuge XXL watermelon in their shopping bag *rolled eyes* dooh..

anyway, its been a long day, but the show must go on.. and now,time for me to log into the career site to look for new jobs.. *sigh*

More than this, baby

Still dying slowly
somehow manage hard to ease the pain away
still dancing the dance of the death
but its gotta take more than this to kill me..
to destroy my faith in myself

Empty.. the feeling i know best
woke up empty, go to bed empty
laugh and cry, talking to my soul
i feel empty inside..

I cant explain this feeling
i feel lifeless yet i dont want to die
i feel lonely yet i dont want you here
i feel empty but i feel better off alone..somehow
i feel tired but i am restless
im fighting this feeling again and again.. and i dont know how long it will take me to stand up again.. brush off the dust.. pick up whats left.. and move on.. and show you what i made of..

i dont know..

all i know is
it takes
more than this
to kill me off the chapter
and more than this
to wipe me out of the way
more than this, baby

So..

Got up early, tried to clear the mess in my head..

Called up a nearby hairdresser for an appointment, and arrived 15 mins later (he' s such a good looking guy, btw :P).. and i realized.. its been a while since i head off to a hairdresser..1 year at least! 1 year!!? damn i really feel like an old lady now..

anyway, cuts and layers are really nice. and ( to my disbelief!) it actually makes you feel better about yourself.. just so you know, i've been reading a lot lately, and many.. ( yes, many) recommends that a change ( yep, you heard it right.) , just a simple change could makes you feel better instantly in cases like mine.. well, of course, it does cheers u up but thats not about it.. you got a hell lot of work to be done as well inside..but, really. i have to admit it.. it works..

so, my new haircut ( * ^-^*) .. i love it to bits.. not only the colour that instantly gives you a glimpse of radiance ( kekeke....) but also the curls.. oh beautiful curls ( it wont last.. i know i know but.. at least im happy for now), they are so beautiful.. and the feel of it.. geez .. i cant remember being any happier for the past 6 months.. ^-^ .. at least i could say.. $200.00 well spent.. hehehe..

and in case you cant imagine how pretty it is (as some ppl may have encounter some imagination prob and underrate the pretti-ness of the haircut *blush*) moi going to be generous enough to show what it looks like.. and there you go!

Alone again (naturally)

I think of you again today
Cant help myself

I miss you again.. so badly its killing me
I missed our first kiss.. our first fight
and all our laughter and tears
they're all coming back to me..

Now you're after your dreams
what am I to you..
chances are.. I'll be seeing you in my dreams tonite..

I love you and I always will
keep and cherish my feelings for you
chances are..you may come back to me again..

take care..

I really hate to see myself drowning in this lifeless thoughts.. i know im dealing with a painful break up and all that.. and i wish i could just said to myself.. get a grip and move on, and really mean it! but again, its always easier said than done..and he is the on i loved .. and still do..and when feelings takeover the working brain, i'll just let myself sink.. deeper and deeper into God knows where..

*sigh* ... well, no one ever says break up is gonna be easy..